Loosening My Grip
As my journey begins, my future life in Africa taking root into my heart, (it is happening, I'm really truly going!), I cannot help but look back at how my Heavenly Father has been orchestrating my journey since the beginning. This particular journey may only be starting, but my God-journey has always been. He has always been paving the paths for me to follow, looking upon me with love and compassion when times were difficult and reaching and calling to me when I strayed. My God loves me so much He takes the time to fill me with joy everyday. He takes the time to beckon me near so that I may feel His overwhelming presence. My God is great and mighty, loving and just. I pray that each and everyday my doubt will diminish as my faith grows. I pray that my love knows no boundaries and that out of my heart flows kindness and grace. I want to learn to wake up each day and say, "This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it!" (Psalm 118:24) My journey in Africa is not about saving lives or changing the world. My journey in Africa is about God shaping and transforming my life to match His. My journey in Africa is about living out this gospel so that I may learn to walk in the presence of our Lord, running in His footprints along the way.
I thank Him for His everlasting patience He has shown me lately. With the constant lack of control I have over my situation in Africa, I find myself grasping for some sort of something to hold on to. When I find nothing, I begin to doubt the plans He has so clearly laid before me. Not plans of my own, but His plans. However, unlike my impatience, our Lord is abounding in patience, and each day He waits for me to loosen my grip so that He may take control. I am truly blessed to be able to go on this journey, to have a family who loves and supports me, and to have a mighty God who lovingly cradles me in the palm of His hands.