Things I Wish I'd Never Heard
Have you ever heard something that as much as you try, you will never forget?
It can go both ways really, the life altering words, whether accidental or deliberate, that someone says. Words that get in your mind and just, stay there.
In one perspective, it's the truth. Some truths that I wish I had never heard. Some stories that can't be untold. Stories that make me sincerely sick every time I think about them. The sad truth? I asked for it. I wanted to know. I demanded to know.
It's funny, the way we think sometimes. We expect the worst and hope for the best, and sometimes the best just isn't the reality. We become so obsessed with knowing something, that it's just that, we're obsessed with wanting to know it so bad, that we don't really think about what it is we'll hear when do hear it. Sometimes we hear things we shouldn't hear then, it's not right time, and frankly, we're not ready. That's how it is sometimes.
I've always been one to question things. It's now that I realize there's some things I shouldn't question. Like what it is someones thinking, and when they tell you, 'you don't want to know', after you hear it, you might just realize their right, you didn't want to know. Or what it is someone thinks about you, because it might not be equal to what you think about them. Or maybe it's a secret of someones, because sometimes, the secrets are secrets for a very good reason.
I think this all falls somewhere in the category of something my parents always used to tell me, 'pick your battles'. Some things aren't worth fighting over, and if you chose to fight over something that can't be changed, like someones past, no one will win and you'll just end up being hurt. Because there are always going to be parts that you shouldn't hear, and when you do, it might sway how you think of that person. And trust me, the things that hurt you the most, you'll never forget.
There are so many things that I've heard that I will never forget. There are bad things that I'm afraid I'll never get over. But as I said, it's not all bad. Sometimes hearing what someone thinks of you can be good, and hearing secrets, or what someone is thinking about, can be surprisingly pleasant. I will never forget the night that my best friend now started opening up to me. Or when my mom first told me to pick my battles. I will never forget the advice my sister gave me one night on how to get over being depressed. All these things that I will never forget because they changed me. These words that help me become who I am today. Words to live by. Words said by loved ones, that made me realize that if I hadn't heard them, I might never have realized them.
One of the most altering things I remember hearing was said by my uncle, who now is deceased. One evening, we were talking and I was so upset by so many things, and when he said this, I had an epiphany. What he said was, "this too shall pass", and for anyone who has read what I made my blog about initially, you will know that those are words which I live by. Those words changed my way of thinking about nearly everything, those words I will always remember him by.
So consider this, although forgetting may be impossible, forgiving always is. Be thankful for the truths that change you, for ignorance is not always bliss, and from every truth you hear, the more in life you will learn, you will adapt, and the more wiser you will become.
There are always going be things you wish you never heard, but there will also be things that you heard, that changed your life.